it seriously is very painful to hear so many people telling me that i deserve better
when its all i can ever dream of
its all i wanted in my life

but i guess ur life, with or without me, isnt gona change much
just that you have one less person to constantly sms and nag at you

it sucks..
the feeling of getting less important
most likely being the onli one to remember almost every detail of the two years spent together
everything we did tgt, every place we went tgt, every reason that made us argue with each other, every effort we made for each other..

i treasure every present, every memory and thats why i remember all of it..
but now its the thing thats causing all the pain

i really hope this three years in uni wont be like my four years in sec sch..
sec sch is torturous enough even tho i knew it was something that wld never belong to me
now.. sth i used to own.. sth that once belonged to me.. i have to face this for another 2 more years.

trying my best to keep everything into a small box and lock it somewhr private at the back of my brain..
i really hope i can do this fast enough
cos its really difficult to fake all the smiles and laughs in front of u, in front of other people, just so that u will feel less hurt, just so that people around me wont keep worrying about me..

i really dont wana carry on living like this..