> Shrouded in darkness;

Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A hidden note, A secret crush,
A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even know my name,
You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
If I say hello,
Will you notice me?

PROFILEY

Name: Pearki
Eggcrack: 12/03
Sch: SACPS
TMS
MJC
Home: singapore

WANTSY

+good result all though my life
+a laptop of my own
+SLR camera
+wishes to come true (:

DO LEAVE ME A TAGY

LINKSY

Cuthbert. Desmond. Khoon Hwa. Michelle 3/2. Noelyn. Rasyidah. Jess. Joyce. Sabrina. See Voon. Yijun. Yvonne. Zulaiha. Zouyi. friend. friend. friend. friend. friend. friend.

ARCHIVES;

November 2008 December 2008 May 2010 June 2010 September 2010 December 2010 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 April 2012 July 2012 October 2012 November 2012 January 2013 February 2013 March 2013 April 2013 July 2013

CREDITS;

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Lyrics of the song "Notice Me" by Zetta Bytes

~~Monday, May 23, 2011~~

11:57 PM

是我没有改变

我改变太多

还是我已经受你影响了？

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, May 21, 2011~~

11:58 PM

你害怕

但你有没有想过

这种怕

因为这一切开始

我已有过很多次

我已经不知道该怎么做
真的

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, May 19, 2011~~

11:58 PM

how long more can i take this before i decide to give up?

how long more can YOU serve as a reminder for ME not to give up?

how long more till i officially don't know how to help you anymore and i just stone?

but more important question would be.....

how long more till you can stand back up?

i want to help you..

i want to do things for you..

i want to make you believe in yourself once more

for this last lap

but your mindset is too rigid

wo zuo zai duo, ye kan bu dao wo yao de jie guo

and i begin to wonder..

when should try

and

when should i not

ni sheng qi, wo tong ku

ni nan guo, wo xin ku

ke shi, wo hai deng ji xu duo jiu?

wo men hai yao tong ku duo jiu?

intially.. it was to help you up

now.. i have problems myself

forgive me if i cant go on

cos the motivation just get weaker

and weaker.................

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, May 18, 2011~~

11:00 PM

uselesss

im always useless

im always of no use

im always like that

no one gives a damn

i dont give a damn

yeah i should just shut up and leave you alone

better for you eh

less anger

less piss

less everything

why did i enter your life anyway?

only know how to screw it up even further

if only i can reverse time

maybe now..

you would be soooooooooooo much better off

without me

aiya screw this..

i should just sew my mouth up

bye

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, May 9, 2011~~

9:00 PM

why am i always wrong

why am i always doing things which ARE wrong

why

ppl encourage you

you push it away

but you can go and encourage others yourself

isnt that contradictory

isnt there an irony over there??!!

ppl tell you that you can do it

no, you dun believe...

ppl tell you dun lose hope

no, you want to lose it..

ppl believe in you

you say no one believes in you

ppl truly cares for you

you dun believe

ppl geniuninly want to help you

you think they mocking you

then wth am i supposed to say?

ignore you?

push you aside?

leave you to emo yourself?

CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?

i may keep things from you

its because there is no appropriate time to bring it up

you ask me for my feelings..

i try to tell you..

in a way that im comfortable with

im changing

im trying my best to change to suit you

but its never enough

I AM ALWAYS WRONG!!! (:

i dun want to ignore you..

i dun want to leave you alone..

but it seems like i have no choice but to do so for a short period of time

if not, I WILL BLOW!!

but i still will continue what i have always been doing

keeping an eye on you..

make sure you dun fall

make sure you dun give up

maybe its just me..

maybe i shouldnt exist in this world to create trouble

im always bringing sorrows anyway..

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, May 7, 2011~~

12:58 AM

its like poverty..

a vicious cycle

we go round and round..

never seem to get any better

when will this end?

soon?

after A levels?

after University?

or never?

giving up..

not something i want you to do

but your comments are never ending..

to the extent of me wanting to give up as well ):

but i know this is not what you want..

although it may be tough to carry on studying harder when ur like that

i will try

and i hope i will be able to give u more effective motivations...

and if all fails,

i really can just go jump off building

cos failure in life is not just dependent on grades in school

ur not a failure to me..

that.. will not change

Will you ever notice me...