Name: Pearki
Eggcrack: 12/03
Sch: SACPS
TMS
MJC
Home: singapore
+a laptop of my own
+SLR camera
+wishes to come true (:
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Why am i becoming like this...?
Why is it so hard to keep it under control?
For 19 yrs, i always keep things to myself.. cry by myself.. hardly any personal feelings are known to my family members.
But for the first time,i cant control and accidentally let it out,making everyone so worried.
I told myself that i cant do this.. i cant let them worry so much. Once again i went back to keeping all these feelings to myself. Letting everything out only when im alone.
The only difference from the past..? It has become so difficult, so painful. Sometimes i wonder why..why is it that its so different now. If i used to do it in the past,doing the same thing should be a piece of cake.
What makes u so special that im becoming like this? Are u that important that its worth the pain?
I dont know. I dont know my feelings now. I dont know what i should do. But on the other hand,i think its better not to know.
All i know is, its so difficult to control that i fear i might once again cause people around me to worry.
What can i do to stop? Is there any button to press to stop all these? Nothing that i do is helping and its killing me! ):
if only its easy...
today during tuition i was asked if i have a boyfriend
it seriously is very painful to hear so many people telling me that i deserve better
no matter how i think of it, its still unfair..
the things that will come, no matter how much you hate it, will come
i realise no matter how much preparations i made..